Thursday, December 23, 2010
I feel I can breathe again. A weight has been lifted. A lot of people have been worried about me, and for good reason. For those of you praying for me, please don't stop; I need those prayers. Be encouraged that I am doing much better, though I still have far to go. Every journey begins with a single step, right? Well, that first step for me out of the darkness, was to pray. Admissions and confessions long overdue; I simply couldn't continue on the path that I was on any longer. I was exhausted and drained in every way. I needed help. So, I reached out to the most powerful source there is; and He answered and provided immediate relief. The aches and pains and burdens are gone. My pride is extinguished and I am trying to re-focus. I've stopped demanding perfection of myself, because I can never achieve it. I'm learning to ask for help and accept that it's okay that I ask and it doesn't mean I'm being a burden for asking. I've decided to stop pretending that things are okay when they're not. I want to be real. I want to push myself to be better. I know I can do it. So, in the light of the holidays, I want to savor the moments. Cheers to a New Year. Cheers to not allowing the mistakes I've made to define who I am and what I can become. Cheers to new beginnings and challenges for growth and maturity. Merry Christmas, Everyone!